‘Straight’ Talk on Homosexuality

If you have not yet done so, I hope you will go and read my previous post on ‘love’. It is my belief that this is the root cause of Homosexuality (or any other sexual sin, for that matter.) Quite simply, homosexuals (adulterers, fornicators, addicts, etc.) have a void, which is a deep-rooted need to be loved and they are looking for fulfillment in all the wrong places.

I have my own theories as to why I believe homosexuals choose to find love from their own sex, but that is not really what I want this post to be about. What it all boils down to, is that only Jesus will truly satisfy the core longing to be loved and validated, which is what Homosexuality is all about.

What I really want to talk about is how Christians relate to Homosexuals. Last time I checked my Bible, I could find no designation that any one sin we commit is worse than another. The Bible says that homosexuality is a sin, but so is fornication, adultery, pride, lying, hypocrisy, gluttony, idolatry, etc., etc., etc. That is…in GOD’S EYES, homosexuality is no worse than any of the other sins. Someone please correct me if I am wrong!

If this is so, then why do Christians feel that they must designate the sin of homosexuality as THE most horrible sin?  More to the point, why do people judge homosexuals so harshly, and why do they judge me for having homosexual friends on my Facebook? I wonder how many fornicators,  adulterers, gluttons, idolators and liars these judging people have as friends on their Facebook?

Do you know what Idolatry is? It’s ANYTHING in your life that you put before God, or which you spend more time with than Him or His pursuits. I would venture to guess that there are very few people who have absolutely NO idols of some kind in their lives. It’s a sin…and it’s no worse in God’s eyes than homosexuality.

I can make what I feel is a pretty accurate guess that homosexuals feel unloved, unlovable, rejected (by many people) and that many of them have some degree of self-hatred. Why, as Christians, would we want to hurt these people further?

We, as Christians, are called to love EVERYONE. Love your neighbor as yourself…not just those you like…not just those you agree with…not just those who make you feel good…not just those who are in your ‘clique’.

IT’S DIFFICULT!

How can we love Homosexuals without compromising our own beliefs? It’s a very difficult and fine line to walk. We can’t condone what they do. We can’t compromise what we believe to ‘make them feel better’…but do we outright reject them and treat them as a pariah?

There is a very strong argument that hanging around people who are wallowing in sin (any kind) will rub off on you. I get it. I agree with it. It’s something called an ‘ungodly’ soul tie. If you go into a smoke-filled room, there is no way you come out of that room and not smell like smoke. An ‘ungodly’ soul tie is a strong agreement you make with someone or some thing.

I’ve heard the example used of a son or daughter who goes to play with a new friend, and they come back and they are talking differently, using different words, they want to dress differently, they have a different attitude, etc.

The Bible says that

“Bad company corrupts good morals.”

“Don’t make friends with an angry man, lest you learn his ways.”

Have you ever had a friend who has been hurt by a mutual friend of yours? Then the friend came to you and told you how horribly the mutual friend treated them. But the fact of the matter is that you have only heard one side of the story…but you find yourself getting sucked in and you get angry at this mutual friend for treating your current friend horribly (or so you’ve been told). You are SO ANGRY that it is as if it has been done to YOU.

You’ve made friends with an angry man, and you have learned his/her ways. It’s an ungodly soul tie. Their angry feelings have tied you together and have transferred to you.

So we must be very careful about who our close friends are…because they WILL rub off on you. I think this is why ‘clean’ drug addicts are advised to form new friendships and not hang around people who are still in the thick of their addiction.

I bring up the above, because if you are closely associating with certain crowds, you will become like them.

So how do we relate to those who believe differently to us or who are wallowing in their ‘sin’?

Christians-

  1. You will not ‘win’ anyone by bashing them over the head with scriptures. As a Christian, you should have compassion for others, and want them to have what you have–Salvation, and the feeling of being accepted and loved just as Jesus loves you. You love HIM, because He first loved you.
  2. You are supposed to be “Jesus” to the world. That means loving like Jesus loved (see scriptures above). Don’t tell people what the Bible says. BE the Bible.
  3. These people have seen a lot of rejection-probably from their family of origin. They have probably felt rejected and unloved for most of their lives. Many of these people have been sexually abused. That damage lasts a lifetime. You will not win them with more rejection or abuse. You come off as yet another hateful, hypocritical ‘Christian’ who is nothing like Jesus.

Homosexuals and ‘Transgenders’– Where I draw the line:

1.) I cannot bake a cake for your ‘marriage’. To do so violates my beliefs–that homosexuality is wrong, is a sin, and God does not like it. I don’t want to do something I know displeases Him .

Why are you not going to the Muslim Bakery for your cake? Furthermore, why are you not insisting that the Muslim ‘Halal’ butcher serve you bacon? Your desire to make people conform to your beliefs does not perpetuate ‘equal rights’. It supports you having ‘special rights’–rights that supercede another’s right to freedom of religion.

Did your mother or father ever make you hug and kiss your sister or brother after you had a fight? Did it change your thoughts and feelings toward whatever you believed about your brother or sister prior to the hug? Did your parents ever make your brother or sister allow you to ‘tag along’ with them? Did it make you feel ‘accepted’? …or did you continue to feel as though they didn’t really want you around? I postulate that forcing Christians to do something they believe at their very core is WRONG, WILL NOT change their minds. We are not forcing you to believe what we believe. We are not forcing you to go to church. Don’t force us to support what you are doing. Go to a bakery that WILL make you a cake.

2. I cannot ‘like’ the picture of you and your ‘partner’ on Facebook. To do so, would compromise my belief that what you are doing is wrong. I cannot pat you on the back for what you are doing, or ‘make you feel better’ about it. Because really…that’s what you want. You feel uncomfortable with what you are doing, and if everyone else applauds you for what you are doing, it says, “You are okay.” …but you are not okay if you are not living God’s way. Been there, done that with other ‘sins’ in my life. You will never be ‘okay’ until you turn to Jesus and let HIM fill your void.

3. I will not support someone who was born a boy, and who still has a penis using the bathroom or locker room my daughter, my niece, my neighbors’ daughters use at school or any other place designated for ‘women only’.

Just because you ‘feel’ you are not the sex you were born does not mean that you ARE that sex. I’m calling it–“The emperor has no clothes!” If you have had surgery to remove your penis, and you must sit down to use the bathroom… if you look like a woman, then just go use the bathroom. Don’t draw attention to it, because it says that what you are doing is really not the issue. It says you want to raise a stink and draw attention to yourself. Why? Because you don’t feel comfortable and at peace with what you are doing, so you need everyone else to ‘validate’ you. Please see this post:

A Thing Called “Love”

LGBQT AND Christians–please read the following carefully, and notice all of the sins listed!

18 For the wrath of God is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men, who suppress the truth in unrighteousness, 

19 because what may be known of God is manifest in them, for God has shown it to them. 

20 For since the creation of the world His invisible attributes are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, even His eternal power and Godhead, so that they are without excuse,

 21 because, although they knew God, they did not glorify Him as God, nor were thankful, but became futile in their thoughts, and their foolish hearts were darkened. 

22 Professing to be wise, they became fools, 

23 and changed the glory of the incorruptible God into an image made like corruptible man—and birds and four-footed animals and creeping things.

24 Therefore God also gave them up to uncleanness, in the lusts of their hearts, to dishonor their bodies among themselves, 

25 who exchanged the truth of God for the lie, and worshiped and served the creature rather than the Creator, who is blessed forever. Amen.

26 For this reason God gave them up to vile passions. For even their women exchanged the natural use for what is against nature. 

27 Likewise also the men, leaving the natural use of the woman, burned in their lust for one another, men with men committing what is shameful, and receiving in themselves the penalty of their error which was due.

28 And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a debased mind, to do those things which are not fitting; 

29 being filled with all unrighteousness, sexual immorality,[c]wickedness, covetousness, maliciousness; full of envy, murder, strife, deceit, evil-mindedness; they are whisperers, 

30 backbiters, haters of God, violent, proud, boasters, inventors of evil things, disobedient to parents, 

31 undiscerning, untrustworthy, unloving, unforgiving,[d]unmerciful; 

32 who, knowing the righteous judgment of God, that those who practice such things are deserving of death, not only do the same but also approve of those who practice them. (Romans 1:18-32)

 

Christians,  I’m sure most of you are guilty of some of the above…and you are deserving of death (so say the scriptures)…just like the homosexuals. We are ALL sinners. That is why we need a savior. That is why you are no better than anyone else on the face of the planet. That is why you can’t point fingers at other people’s sin.

Let’s assume that you are sinless and have never done any of the above mentioned things. Just because you might not do these things, if you are ‘approving’ or ‘applauding’ what sinners do, the scriptures say you are also deserving of death. We all do this–we watch TV shows and movies full of people doing what we, ourselves, would not do. We read books full of this stuff. It’s wrong, and it not only displeases God. Most importantly, you leave a wide open door for satan to walk right through. Having had a problem with alcohol in the past, I don’t want to even go near it because I am so glad to be freed from that bondage. I don’t think I am better than you if you drink. I am FREE, and grateful, and I don’t want to slap God in the face by participating.

In 17 years, I have had one glass of wine, and that was because my bosses at the time (who coincidentally were gay) took us to a fancy dinner for helping to move the store. They ordered some very expensive wines for a ‘wine-tasting’. Not wanting to offend them, I had the equivalent of probably one glass of wine. I really regretted it. Not because I was tempted to fall into my old lifestyle, (though if I had continued to participate day after day, I might have)…it was because I had participated in something I was so in bondage to in my past and I never, EVER, want to go back to that place in my life. This is also one of the reasons Bud and I stopped performing in our German Folk Music Group. Many of the songs were about drinking, and encouraging people to drink. People came to listen to the music while they got drunk. That was the point.

Have I arrived? Absolutely not. I am including myself in all of the above list in the scriptures. I still struggle with some of the things on the list. I think MOST people do. I’m still learning to love. I’m still learning to forgive and release bitterness. I still don’t always handle situations right. I’m still a hypocrite sometimes.

I am not judging you. Please don’t judge me for having Homosexual friends on my Facebook, or anything else for that matter. You don’t know me. I can see beyond their ‘sin’, as God sees past mine. I can see a very lovable person and noble attributes in each and every one of them. More importantly, I see that they are hurting–just as I have hurt in the past. They are human beings, not monsters.

For my LGBQT friends (or anyone else who is wallowing in a sin you can’t just stop doing.) –What is the answer?

1.Recognizing it is the first step. You can’t change it, if you don’t recognize that it’s a problem in your life.

2. Repent of it, which means to turn away from the sin and try to stop doing it. This is key. Repenting is an act of your will, and it tells God that you mean business–that you don’t want to ‘wallow’ in your sin anymore or make excuses for it. You will probably fail. Repent again and keep trying.

3. Ask God for help. If you still love your sin, ask God to make you willing to change. He can and will change a willing heart.

4. Remove yourself from those who would entice you to sin. They will draw you back in and you will be tempted.

But how can you stop having inappropriate feelings? How can you stop sinning when you have an addiction? How can you love when you are broken?

RESIST THEM. Satan is trying to pull you back into it. Learn what the Bible says about you. Verbally refuse those feelings.

If you have addictions, sins you can’t conquer or inappropriate feelings for the opposite sex (or the same sex for that matter), in spite of trying to stop, it’s a demonic problem. Jesus and Biblical deliverance can help you.

If you want to know more about Biblical Deliverance, let me know. It’s real, and it works. It will bring help and changes you can’t make on your own, but it requires that you be willing to turn away from the sin, first, and no longer make excuses for it.

I realize this won’t be a popular post, but HEY, none of my posts have been popular, lately. However, I really, really felt I needed to get this off my chest. No seems to care about the Little House in the Ozarks or Me and Bud, so why can’t I write about what I want to write about? If you have made it this far, thanks for reading! I hope something I said rang a bell with you or made you see things from a different perspective.

 

 

 

 

A Thing Called ‘Love’…

Lately, I have been thinking that my time here at “Little House In The Ozarks” is ‘done’. Work on the Little House continues, and the same tasks go on every day. Every day is a ‘big deal’ to me and Bud, and I’m grateful for every single day, regardless of how mundane it must seem to other people. I still thank God every day for my home, my husband and my pets. I could write forever about something my chickens do, or post pictures of them every day. Since I’ve never had children, my motherly instincts are fulfilled by taking care of them. I do realize, however, that not everyone gets as excited over my feathered friends as I do. I also realize that my mundane life here is not of interest to most.

I do always have a thing or two to say, though…even if most don’t care what I think or what I have to say. So for now, I’m not yet going to delete my blog or give it up.

The thing on my heart today is the subject of ‘love’. If I had to make a guess, I’d say that most people do not know what true unconditional love really is. How many of us have read 1 Corinthians 13…a description of what unconditional love is, and think it’s a nice thing to strive for, but we know we do not have it in our own hearts?

Love suffers long and is kind;

love does not envy;

love does not parade itself,

is not puffed up; 

does not behave rudely,

does not seek its own,

is not provoked,

thinks no evil; 

does not rejoice in iniquity,

but rejoices in the truth; 

bears all things,

believes all things,

hopes all things,

endures all things.

Love never fails.

(1 Corinthians 13: 4-8)

I use to read this scripture and wonder, “How can anyone do this?” I KNEW I couldn’t do it. I knew I wanted to, and thought it was what we should strive for. I now know why… Or at least it’s MY theory on why, even most Christians can’t love like this.

I believe that there are a lot of factors contributing to it, but at the core, I think most people are not ‘whole’. I think it’s because they have a void in their lives that can’t be filled. They try to fill this void by working a lot to earn ‘validation’ or accolades that make them feel like a ‘somebody’. They fill the void and mask the hurt with drugs, food and alcohol. They spend their lives manipulating people, controlling people, to get what they need from that person. They ‘give’ or ‘take care’ of people in hopes they will get reciprocation in kind to fill their void. They take ‘selfies’ and post them on Facebook, pinning their ‘worth’ on their looks, how fat or thin they are,  and how many ‘likes’ or comments they receive. They seek approval and ‘love’ by performing and people pleasing…trying and trying to be more perfect…because when they are ‘perfect’ they will be loved. Or they are on the other side, controlling, thinking, “If that person will just CHANGE, do this, do that, treat me this way or that…then I will feel loved.” Many people go from person to person to person, to people of the opposite sex, to people of the same sex…hoping that the next person will ‘meet their needs’. Finally, they will find someone who loves them.

There is a common thread in all of the above. It’s a selfish kind of ‘love’. It’s always looking and looking and looking for someone, something, some place…where they will feel validated, loved, and approved. They will finally find someone that will ‘get them’, understand them, make their heart pitter-patter. Hoping they will find some person or experience that will take away their sadness and discomfort with themselves.

How can anyone love unselfishly? Most of us know nothing else but ‘selfish love’ and we are driven to do anything that will kill the pain of not being loved or approved, or which will fill the bottomless or nameless void in our lives.

There are many who say that Jesus will fill the void. While this is true, just as all sickness does not leave your body at the moment of ‘salvation’… all emotional sickness does not leave your body at the moment of ‘salvation’, either.

I speak from personal experience. I am not blaming anyone–the TRUTH, is that broken people marry other broken people, they have broken marriages and produce broken children, and it is a cycle. There are varying degrees of ‘brokenness’. We are responsible for ourselves and doing what we need to do to become ‘whole’. Wallowing in our misery and blaming other people solves nothing, and ultimately, in the end, God will ask us about US–not what other people did to us.

I was broken…and absolute mess…and I needed a Savior.  I thank God that He can pick up all of the broken pieces and hopelessness, and make something much better out of all of those pieces.

I hasten to add that I am not perfect. I still have a lot of flaws and I am a work in progress…but in later years, I have HOPE, and I have an inkling of what ‘unconditional love’ really is, and more and more each day…I am becoming more whole. This makes me more and more able to ‘give’..rather than always looking to receive.

You will never be able to fully love other people unconditionally until you, yourselves are WHOLE. Unconditional love is giving love without expecting anything in return–not expecting a reciprocation–not expecting a certain reaction from the other person. It’s being able to serve another person’s needs without getting your own needs met. But I speak from experience–when you are emotionally whole, all of your emotional needs are filled by the Lord.

People can’t fill your voids, because people are imperfect and fallible. People will always fail you, eventually. When the Lord heals you and makes you whole, –though there can still be feelings of rejection and hurt, your well-being and approval are solid, they are ‘innate’…and all those things are from above. Finally, you have the illusive ‘peace’.

How did this happen for me?

  1. Getting to the point of complete and total brokenness and desperation, and finally going to the right place to find answers (God) rather than people, places, experiences, and things. God is ALWAYS the answer.
  2. I read a book that really spoke to me and opened my eyes about a lot of things. (“Lord, I Want To Be Whole” by Stormie O’Martian)
  3. Experiencing being unconditionally loved by a Pastor and His Wife,  spending time with them, (and their parishioners) and being mentored by them. (I hasten to add–for those who are convinced that I am ‘racist’ …that this was a black church.) They modeled unconditional love to me and loved me in the unconditional way that God loves us. I didn’t know what it was, nor had I ever experienced it–being loved for simply being ME. Love and approval wasn’t dependent on whether I went to their church, there was no judgment or lectures for the problems I was having at the time, it wasn’t dependent on what I did or didn’t do, it wasn’t selfish, it wasn’t sexual or ungodly, it wasn’t dependent on me pleasing them or meeting their needs. They were able to see me as God sees me. I was loved for simply being the precious daughter of God He made me to be, and they treated me as such. 
  4. Getting deliverance prayer and being delivered…from shame, from rejection, from fear of rejection, from selfishness, from rebellion, from pride, etc., etc., etc., It has been a long and painful on-going process, with many setbacks. Deliverance is a process. You peel back one layer, and it reveals another. My ‘break-through’ came when I was praying for a lady who had all of the same issues as I did, and the Pastor came up behind us and started praying for her. All of the things he was praying for, were the same things I needed deliverance for. The pain started bubbling up from deep within. I desperately wanted and needed all of those things he was praying for. I started crying and he began praying for both of us, and I believe I was delivered of a lot of things that night. That was the major turning point in my life on a lot of things.

My healing wasn’t a ‘quick fix’ or some ‘miracle’. It was a very long process borne out of desperation and misery on my part, walking around with this gaping wound in my chest on a daily basis. It couldn’t be physically seen, but it was my daily companion.

My healing and deliverance required that I step out in faith and do many things I did not feel like doing…such as reaching out to others (namely my husband) when I felt like they should be reaching out to me. Meeting others needs, when I had my own needs that were begging to be filled. Looking at what “I” was doing wrong…what was wrong in my OWN life, rather than constantly looking at what the other person was doing wrong.

Why does God require this? Why can’t he just zap us, and make us whole? It’s my personal belief that we would not be grateful enough to hold it, and would simply go back to that sinful wallowing, and allow all of that junk back in, if we had not been through these painful, but healing experiences. I can tell you that there are things that I am so grateful to be delivered of, that I don’t even want to touch or go near those things again, nor allow that sin back into my life.

As I said, I had been so desperate to get my own needs met, I believe I needed to practice and purposely work on meeting others needs (trying to love them unconditionally, without expecting anything in return) because I had been under the impression that everything was everyone else’s fault. As I gained more freedom, and I worked on trying to do this, I got more and more healing and more freedom in my life.

When I mentioned that I needed to work on meeting others needs at the expense of my own, I do not mean becoming a ‘door mat’, or doing it in a codependent way. I want to do another post on boundaries, and/or codependency…and maybe homosexuality, too. These topics have just been heavily on my heart and they won’t go away. I keep composing the blog post in my head…it’s full of things I want to say. I’m battling with myself, telling myself that people won’t read it, they don’t want to hear it, they think I’m a hypocrite, etc. Bud says that’s usually a sign I need to write about it. So here it is.

That’s it in a nutshell. This post is not directed to any person in particular. I love you all…and I am imperfect…a work in progress.  I know the things I do often don’t make any sense to people who are hell bent on judging me, or desperate to get their own needs met…but just because one doesn’t understand why I do what I do NOW, does not mean you might not understand in the future, nor does it mean I am ‘wrong’…(though I admit that often am.)

I have found that if I am ruminating about what someone else is doing wrong, it’s often a sign that I need to figure out what is wrong in my own life. If I draw the circle around myself, and take care of the person inside, the issues I have with ‘the other person’ usually disappear…and it makes me FREE!

 

 

 

 

 

Psalm 71

In thee, O Lord, do I put my trust: let me never be put to confusion.

Deliver me in thy righteousness, and cause me to escape: incline thine ear unto me, and save me.

Be thou my strong habitation, whereunto I may continually resort: thou hast given commandment to save me; for thou art my rock and my fortress.

Deliver me, O my God, out of the hand of the wicked, out of the hand of the unrighteous and cruel man.

For thou art my hope, O Lord God: thou art my trust from my youth.

By thee have I been holden up from the womb: thou art he that took me out of my mother’s bowels: my praise shall be continually of thee.

I am as a wonder unto many; but thou art my strong refuge.

Let my mouth be filled with thy praise and with thy honour all the day.

Cast me not off in the time of old age; forsake me not when my strength faileth.

10 For mine enemies speak against me; and they that lay wait for my soul take counsel together,

11 Saying, God hath forsaken him: persecute and take him; for there is none to deliver him.

12 O God, be not far from me: O my God, make haste for my help.

13 Let them be confounded and consumed that are adversaries to my soul; let them be covered with reproach and dishonour that seek my hurt.

14 But I will hope continually, and will yet praise thee more and more.

15 My mouth shall shew forth thy righteousness and thy salvation all the day; for I know not the numbers thereof.

16 I will go in the strength of the Lord God: I will make mention of thy righteousness, even of thine only.

17 O God, thou hast taught me from my youth: and hitherto have I declared thy wondrous works.

18 Now also when I am old and grey-headed, O God, forsake me not; until I have shewed thy strength unto this generation, and thy power to every one that is to come.

19 Thy righteousness also, O God, is very high, who hast done great things: O God, who is like unto thee!

20 Thou, which hast shewed me great and sore troubles, shalt quicken me again, and shalt bring me up again from the depths of the earth.

21 Thou shalt increase my greatness, and comfort me on every side.

22 I will also praise thee with the psaltery, even thy truth, O my God: unto thee will I sing with the harp, O thou Holy One of Israel.

23 My lips shall greatly rejoice when I sing unto thee; and my soul, which thou hast redeemed.

24 My tongue also shall talk of thy righteousness all the day long: for they are confounded, for they are brought unto shame, that seek my hurt.

At The Name of Jesus, Every Knee Shall Bow…

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If there be therefore any consolation in Christ, if any comfort of love, if any fellowship of the Spirit, if any bowels and mercies,

Fulfil ye my joy, that ye be likeminded, having the same love, being of one accord, of one mind.

Let nothing be done through strife or vainglory; but in lowliness of mind let each esteem other better than themselves.

Look not every man on his own interests, but every man also on the interests of others.

Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus:

Who, being in the form of God, thought it not robbery to be equal with God:

But made himself of no reputation, and took upon him the form of a servant, and was made in the likeness of men:

And being found in fashion as a man, he humbled himself, and became obedient unto death, even the death of the cross.

Wherefore God also hath highly exalted him, and given him a name which is above every name:

10 That at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of things in heaven, and things in earth, and things under the earth;

11 And that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.

12 Wherefore, my beloved, as ye have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling.

13 For it is God which worketh in you both to will and to do of his good pleasure.

14 Do all things without murmurings and disputings:

15 That ye may be blameless and harmless, the sons of God, without rebuke, in the midst of a crooked and perverse nation, among whom ye shine as lights in the world;

16 Holding forth the word of life; that I may rejoice in the day of Christ, that I have not run in vain, neither laboured in vain.

Philippians 2:1-16

So do not fear, for I am with you…

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10.So do not fear, for I am with you;
    do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
    I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

 

11 “All who rage against you
    will surely be ashamed and disgraced;
those who oppose you
    will be as nothing and perish.

12 Though you search for your enemies,
    you will not find them.
Those who wage war against you
    will be as nothing at all.

13 For I am the Lord your God
    who takes hold of your right hand
and says to you, Do not fear;
    I will help you.

Isaiah 41:10-13

 

No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, and their righteousness is of me, saith the Lord.

Isaiah 54:17

Update on the Price of Toilet Paper in Tête-à-la-Baleine

“I love daisies…They’re so friendly. Don’t you think that daisies are the friendliest flowers?” -Kathleen (Meg Ryan) in “You’ve Got Mail”

As you saw in my last post, we have been having LOTS of rain this spring! Consequently, the wildflowers have been BURSTING to life all over the place. We are loving it, the chickens are loving it and the bugs are loving it. Though it’s not a great picture, I found two bugs ‘doing it’ on the Queen Anne’s Lace.

“Birds do it, bees do it Even orange and black bugs do it… Let’s do it, let’s fall in love…”

I can’t remember if I’ve mentioned it before, but we have been on a Ketogenic Diet. It’s basically an updated version of ‘Low Carb’ that is High Fat, Moderate Protein and Low Carb. I’m also reading Dr. Mercola’s new book, “Fat for Fuel” and there is a lot of science that supports the Ketogenic Diet to regain health. Bud and I both feel really good when we are on it. This is my favorite Keto Site.

The Diet Doctor

Of the recipes I’ve tried, there are very few I would not repeat.

I’ve been struggling with headaches, brain fog and fatigue ever since I came back from my hike. I have a history of headaches, but these have been different. The headaches have been incapacitating, and have continued even with a change in diet, vitamins, and having Bud pray for me. I think God can choose to heal any way he wants to….through prayer, through doctors, through diet or vitamins…I don’t understand sometimes, but I’m always eager to learn whatever I’m supposed to through it.

I really think this was to be an exercise, of sorts, for me. One day, after crying out to the Lord about the situation, at the end of my rope, I felt a strong urging to ask a particular friend to pray for me. I resisted at first…didn’t want to do it, but it’s not often I feel an urging like this. It wouldn’t go away. It wasn’t a nagging thing…it was gentle. It’s not easy for me to reach out, and especially hard to ask for help from anyone but Bud. I just suddenly felt strongly that at this particular time, for this particular situation, that it was very important that I ask this particular friend to pray for me.

Since I asked her to pray for me (which she graciously and happily agreed to), I’ve had more ‘good days’ in the past week than I have had in about 8 months! I’m praising God for it! I feel like a different person and the oppression I was feeling is gone. I’m not completely headache-free, but I have lived with headaches most of my adult life. I can happily settle for lesser headaches, but being able to function! I will keep seeking answers on this.

My neighbor (The Soap Lady) gave us about 2 Gallons of Strawberries she grew herself! Nothing tastes like home grown fruits and veggies. Strawberries are low carb, so we’ve been eating them mostly with whipped cream. Mmmmmm….

My Garden has been doing fairly well this year. I’m not always good about weeding. With all the rain, weeds have been hard to keep up with. We’ve gotten lots of Kale, and two kinds of Lettuce. My tomato and pepper plants are putting on fruit, my beans and cucumbers are growing, well….like weeds! I even have some zucchinis starting to grow!

Bud has had quite a few of his compositions for String Orchestra published! He even has a ‘Public Figure’ Page on Facebook and YouTube Channel now. Check it out!

Bud Woodruff – Composer

Bud’s YouTube Channel

I’m so proud of him!

Bud’s Mom passed away. She was 95, and had been in a Nursing Home with Dementia. What a dear lady she was, and what a legacy she left, not the least of which is the man she raised that I ended up marrying. She was also a perfect mother-in-law.

Bud credits her with being instrumental in his music career (no pun intended). She would play many types of music for him when he was very young, and taught him to appreciate music. I can’t say enough good things about her. She was quick to laugh, almost always had a smile and a kind word, she was loving and gracious. She was an amazing lady.

Bud had to leave for the funeral early to sign papers, in fact, he had to leave the day he found out about it. I really wanted to go with him, but had to follow several days later. It’s not easy to ‘chicken-sit’ around these parts because everyone lives so far away. It requires coming twice a day-to let them out in the morning and close them up in the hen house at night. I try very hard not to ask for ‘chicken-sitting’ favors except in emergencies. At the very least, I’m judicious in asking.

The Soap Lady agreed to do it for me. She loves Grace, too, (who can be a real toot, sometimes) and I felt really good leaving my animals in her care. She did an awesome job! Thank you, dear friend! The chickens and Grace were sorry to see me come home since you took such good care of them. They told me to leave again so you could come back. 😉

Out here in the country, we don’t get out much. Since I haven’t worked for a while, I had no nice dress to wear that fit and wasn’t 10 years out of date. I went to the Dress Barn in Branson and allowed the an older Sales Lady to help me pick a dress out. (That, too, was an exercise for me. I usually shun help from Sales Ladies. I even tried the dress on for her to see what she thought! Waaaay out of my comfort zone. She helped me pick out a very nice dress.

I had to get a hair cut, too, because I looked like the Shaggy D.A. I don’t even wear make up around here most of the time. My visit to the hair dresser was….a nightmare. Hair cuts are almost always traumatic for me. The guy I’ve been going to does good work. It’s always a good haircut, but it never turns out like the pictures I take in. I really wanted to look nice, and sort of up-to-date. I came out looking like Angela Merkel. I was embarrassed; however, I got several compliments on it at the funeral, so that made me feel better.

The drive to Houston was brutal. It’s 10 very long hours. My hiney was so sore by the time I got there. I chucked my diet for the trip and we had Fajitas from Gringos, and BBQ from Pappas Brisket House while we were there(…not to mention Waffle House for breakfast.) OMG. My two favorite things, and it was SO good. You just can’t get good BBQ or good Mexican Food in Arkansas.

We also got out cars washed at a very nice car wash in our old barrio, Deer Park. They even dried them off afterward. (Can you tell we haven’t been to the city in a long time? LOL!)

Bud and I stayed at an extremely nice Super 8 Motel. I got to watch The Weather Channel a lot, and the bed was very comfortable. It even had a mini-fridge. My only gripe was that I saw a roach (one of those big’uns) in the bathroom. I screamed and Bud came and killed it for me. It brought back memories…nightmares I’ve tried to forget. I’m so glad we escaped that hell hole called Houston…not only because of the Texas Sized Roaches, but because it feels like you are literally baking in the Devil’s oven.

The service for Bud’s Mom was very nice. I was able to see lots of people on Bud’s side of the family that I hadn’t seen in a while and that was extra nice. Bud and  I drove home together…following one another. Again, long and brutal, and it was nice to be back home.

We were so glad to be back home! Bud and I, introverts that we are, were both buzzing after the excitement and activity of being in the big city around…’people’ for several days. Truly, there is no place like our home in the country.

Hope everyone is having a good Thursday!